Tomorrow morning is the big day - the long awaited and dreaded divorce mediation meeting. My mood is more matter-of-fact than anything else. Having lost a spouse to death, I know only too well the importance of love, commitment and marriage. I am tremendously sad that my husband did not want to make any effort at working this relationship out. What a waste of so much! But at the same time I realize that to fight for something the other person does not want is fruitless. At this point, if he truly wants a divorce I want him to have what he wants. I hope it brings him peace. I hope for myself closure. I wish for both of us future happiness. It is my sincere intent to only bring loving-kindness into the mediation arena; to be honest, fair and understanding. I have a feeling Husband #2 will not be in the same mind frame. But no matter. I hope also to carry myself with dignity and strength. And to somehow generate love toward myself and even my husband. I am wishing myself luck!
Today I am grateful:
1. For love which is stronger than everything and will prevail even in the darkest of moments.
2. For the long journey I have survived the past seven months.
3. For all the growth and insight this situation has bestowed on me.